Hmmm..

She was only 10, when she first time had a crush on him.
Nothing special. Except that one time she did a stupid thing in front of him.

She was 15, when she first met him at the church.
Nothing special. She just liked to see him.
And she couldn't wait to see him again every week, just to see him.
She even didn't know him, not even his name.
She just likes to see him.

She was 17, when she saw him with his mum and sister, without a father.
She wondered, and began to look at him.
She met him almost every week, and suddenly she liked him.
She didn't know him, never wanted to know.
She just likes to see him.

She spent the whole 6 years at the same class together with him.
She competed with him, and she had a crush on him.
She said nothing to anybody, that she had this feeling.
Almost 20 years later, she still had that feeling.
Until someday he got married.
She knew she loves him.

She liked him. She had nothing in her mind but being his friend.
One day a friend told her, he had a girlfriend.
She felt hurt in her heart.
But she decided to still be his friend, no matter what.
She just loves him.


At this point, love - if it's a love - hurts. Cannot touch, can only be seen.
But sometimes by looking at your loves from the distance, and making no distraction of your presence to them by putting your needs, you can see them as they really are.
Perhaps sometimes it's better like that..