Panik.
Bener-bener panik.
*jadi sakit kepala*
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Terlalu Baik Juga Tidak Baik
This weekend I've learnt and understood some things about life and relationship with people.
First thing (and this is the main lesson) is, don't be too kind to other people. It can destroy yourself and the people that you give your kindness, with or without you/she/he realizes it.
It can destroy yourself, because of course we all know that often people can take advantage of our kindness. Because they see that you won't say no, you will do what they want you to do without any objection, you even don't think that's something behind, something's hided from you, and you just do it.
Eventhough perhaps you feel some strange feelings, know that something's not right, or somehow you can feel that you're being manipulated, but you still stay calm and try not to think a bad things about that person.
I think we all ever on this kind of situation, only some of us can immediatelly realize that her/his kindness is being used by others, some take longer time, while the other perhaps until the end of his/her life won't realize it.
On the other way around, I think we all also ever become the one who takes advantage on other's kindness. Sometimes we know it, sometimes we just don't realize it.
I'll take one example, from a story of man-woman relationship. Although this is an extreme example but you'll see some commons "character-by-nature"(?) of man and woman there besides about the kindness itself.
There's a couple who had married for more than 10 years. Someday the husband met another woman and dated her. Then he asked for divorce because the woman asked him to marry her. The man couldn't say no (man's problem no 1). The wife couldn't do anything but accepted what the man wanted (woman's problem no 1). The woman wanted to get married as soon as possible, but it's not that easy. The divorce process took some time. During the process, the wife still showed the will to get together, but there's no chance. While the wife went for holiday, the husband brought the woman into their house. Later on the wife knew (woman's problem (or strenght?) no 2: intuition) that the husband made a lie by manipulating / making such arrangement so the wife wouldn't find out / couldn't know what's hided by the husband (man's problem no 2).
At the end, the wife gave everything what the husband wanted. And also she helped him so the husband could marry the woman soon (woman's problem no 3: being hurted thousands time wouldn't change the love she has :p). And she's asked to be the woman's friend, for the woman had no friend in that country, by the parents of the husband.
The last sentence is an example how sometimes people cross the very end-border of other's kindness, they just don't know the border.
The wife is so kind, so they think it's Okay to ask her like that..
But actually they don't think about her feeling at all.
This is what we sometimes do to other, to our friend, to someone we care/love, unconsciously.
The person who is being used, also sometimes couldn't see that the border has been crossed, and she/he couldn't say NO..
About the story itself, finally the wife is able to say NO, and realizes that she now has her self-esteem.
I note some situations which I found often happened on man-woman relationships, see the underlines on the example above. That's the second lesson, but until now I still couldn't understand, especially the man's part.
I'm writing this actually only to remind me. Of course I'm not the angel-type person who's always nice and kind to other people, especially to the people I love. But somehow, the more I re-think, the more I realize that it happened also to me. Sometimes I was too kind.. sometimes I couldn't say no.. sometimes I couldn't get angry.. and sometimes others like to hide something from me because.. I don't know (this part which I still couldn't understand).. perhaps because they don't want to hurt me, or don't want me to know the reality, or they just think it's the better way to treat me.. and often at the end I just know myself what was happened, sometimes I just feel sad, but couldn't say to the person that what he/she has done has humiliated me.
*sigh* Finally I can say that word. Well, at least here.
Updated on Mon, Apr 28:
I've forgotten, that sometimes I humiliated other people also, without I notice it.. :(
Lesson no 3: we as an individual, should have self-esteem. Other won't respect you until you can give value to yourself. Easy to say, difficult to do.. trust me.
wihh.. capek juga.
Ya sutrah, pokoknya aku tidak sudi direndahkan lagi..
Mesti hati2 jg, jgn sampai lah merendahkan orang lain..
Jadi inget, kemaren pas pulang dr rumah temen malem2, di bus ada seorang nenek dengan dandanan menor + pakaian dugem nya duduk di depanku. Dua penumpang cewek di seberang senyum2 ngeliat si nenek ini yg lagi sibuk ngaca. Aku cuman bisa diam. Jadi merasa kasian. Sepertinya si nenek pingin balik muda lagi. Ya itu haknya dia lah kalo mau dandan menor. Tapi yg pasti bukan hak kita utk merendahkannya..
First thing (and this is the main lesson) is, don't be too kind to other people. It can destroy yourself and the people that you give your kindness, with or without you/she/he realizes it.
It can destroy yourself, because of course we all know that often people can take advantage of our kindness. Because they see that you won't say no, you will do what they want you to do without any objection, you even don't think that's something behind, something's hided from you, and you just do it.
Eventhough perhaps you feel some strange feelings, know that something's not right, or somehow you can feel that you're being manipulated, but you still stay calm and try not to think a bad things about that person.
I think we all ever on this kind of situation, only some of us can immediatelly realize that her/his kindness is being used by others, some take longer time, while the other perhaps until the end of his/her life won't realize it.
On the other way around, I think we all also ever become the one who takes advantage on other's kindness. Sometimes we know it, sometimes we just don't realize it.
I'll take one example, from a story of man-woman relationship. Although this is an extreme example but you'll see some commons "character-by-nature"(?) of man and woman there besides about the kindness itself.
There's a couple who had married for more than 10 years. Someday the husband met another woman and dated her. Then he asked for divorce because the woman asked him to marry her. The man couldn't say no (man's problem no 1). The wife couldn't do anything but accepted what the man wanted (woman's problem no 1). The woman wanted to get married as soon as possible, but it's not that easy. The divorce process took some time. During the process, the wife still showed the will to get together, but there's no chance. While the wife went for holiday, the husband brought the woman into their house. Later on the wife knew (woman's problem (or strenght?) no 2: intuition) that the husband made a lie by manipulating / making such arrangement so the wife wouldn't find out / couldn't know what's hided by the husband (man's problem no 2).
At the end, the wife gave everything what the husband wanted. And also she helped him so the husband could marry the woman soon (woman's problem no 3: being hurted thousands time wouldn't change the love she has :p). And she's asked to be the woman's friend, for the woman had no friend in that country, by the parents of the husband.
The last sentence is an example how sometimes people cross the very end-border of other's kindness, they just don't know the border.
The wife is so kind, so they think it's Okay to ask her like that..
But actually they don't think about her feeling at all.
This is what we sometimes do to other, to our friend, to someone we care/love, unconsciously.
The person who is being used, also sometimes couldn't see that the border has been crossed, and she/he couldn't say NO..
About the story itself, finally the wife is able to say NO, and realizes that she now has her self-esteem.
I note some situations which I found often happened on man-woman relationships, see the underlines on the example above. That's the second lesson, but until now I still couldn't understand, especially the man's part.
I'm writing this actually only to remind me. Of course I'm not the angel-type person who's always nice and kind to other people, especially to the people I love. But somehow, the more I re-think, the more I realize that it happened also to me. Sometimes I was too kind.. sometimes I couldn't say no.. sometimes I couldn't get angry.. and sometimes others like to hide something from me because.. I don't know (this part which I still couldn't understand).. perhaps because they don't want to hurt me, or don't want me to know the reality, or they just think it's the better way to treat me.. and often at the end I just know myself what was happened, sometimes I just feel sad, but couldn't say to the person that what he/she has done has humiliated me.
*sigh* Finally I can say that word. Well, at least here.
Updated on Mon, Apr 28:
I've forgotten, that sometimes I humiliated other people also, without I notice it.. :(
Lesson no 3: we as an individual, should have self-esteem. Other won't respect you until you can give value to yourself. Easy to say, difficult to do.. trust me.
wihh.. capek juga.
Ya sutrah, pokoknya aku tidak sudi direndahkan lagi..
Mesti hati2 jg, jgn sampai lah merendahkan orang lain..
Jadi inget, kemaren pas pulang dr rumah temen malem2, di bus ada seorang nenek dengan dandanan menor + pakaian dugem nya duduk di depanku. Dua penumpang cewek di seberang senyum2 ngeliat si nenek ini yg lagi sibuk ngaca. Aku cuman bisa diam. Jadi merasa kasian. Sepertinya si nenek pingin balik muda lagi. Ya itu haknya dia lah kalo mau dandan menor. Tapi yg pasti bukan hak kita utk merendahkannya..
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Brugge & Antwerpen
Finally last weekend I was able to manage myself to visit my friend in Antwerpen, Belgium.
What was left from this trip, what I saw and learnt, here is the summary.. :)
Right after I arrived, my friend took me to a party held by her friends. It was a party to introduce what and how to produce and eat Raclette. Her Switzerland friend brought the machine (to heat the round cheese and make it melted) from her home, and showed us how to eat this Switzerland's traditional food. It's interesting to see the machine. It's definitely not like a kind of machine that you can see on your dining table while you're having dinner.. :p (it's like machine in the factory)
4. Brugge
The next morning, we went to Brugge, a small city 1.5 hours from Antwerpen by train, which I just know that this city is one of the UNESCO world heritage cities, and known as the Venice of the North!! Oh my God.. I just read this information after I went back home.. :P *memalukan*
That's why there were so many tourists there (from Japanese to Americans).. and when I was there, I was wondering why there were so many people and why they looked so interested in this city.
What we have done there then? Here they are:
- walked to city without knowing the direction, just followed the people :p
- but then I bought the book about the city with the city map included, and we tried to follow the map - which was not so successfuly.
- ate muscle, waffel, and pralineee...
- took a boat tour
- saw some churches and failed to go up the bell town (because we just missed a few minutes before they closed the locket)
Anyway, I enjoyed the trip.. Thanks to Bintari who took us there.
5. Kartini Restaurant - Antwerpen
After our trip to Brugge, then we're ready for our BIG dinner..!! :D
My friend suggested to have dinner at Kartini restaurant in Antwerpen. She said it has the most delicious Indonesian food, compare to other Indonesian restaurants she knows. And we're lucky that we can directly get the table.. =) *that's a blessed for me*
Once I saw there's Soto Ayam on their menu, I directly ordered it. So that night I ate Soto Ayam with Emping, Rice, Kecap, and Samballl... *enak lho sambelnya*
It's soooo delicious!! I can't believe it.. it's just like the one made by my mom at home.... wahh.. bener2 dimakan dgn penuh perasaan deh..
Too bad that they categorize it as appetizer, so the portion is so little :(
Anyway, it's okay.. I like it. :)
6. Diamonds
Antwerpen is famous for its diamonds - I mean, its diamond shops :p
You can find many diamond shops in and around the central station.
Too bad I had no chance to do window shopping.. :p
What was left from this trip, what I saw and learnt, here is the summary.. :)
I arrived at 8 pm, and when I saw the station, I could only say: "wooww..." It's so big! I think it's bigger than Hamburg central station (in depth, especially). The first train station I ever saw that has 4 floors/levels with platforms on level +1, -1, and -2.. (when I was about to arrive, the train went through a long tunnel and then suddenly it was already on the arrival platform inside the station). The architecture is also amazing. It's like you're inside the castle or museum, and not inside a train station.
2. RacletteRight after I arrived, my friend took me to a party held by her friends. It was a party to introduce what and how to produce and eat Raclette. Her Switzerland friend brought the machine (to heat the round cheese and make it melted) from her home, and showed us how to eat this Switzerland's traditional food. It's interesting to see the machine. It's definitely not like a kind of machine that you can see on your dining table while you're having dinner.. :p (it's like machine in the factory)
3. Met great people from around the world
I met many of my friend's friends in this party, most of them are doctors, or/and people who work on health sectors, from all continents (except Australia). One has worked in Papua, others in Africa, one comes from Kuba, and others come from Nepal, Japan, Italy, Sudan, and Peru.
The one's from Peru, she's sooooo beautiful. Well, I think we all know that middle-south American women are mostly beautiful (isn't that right, guys?). Anyway, she's a doctor also and doing a research about TBC (if I'm not mistaken). She also worked for an NGO before. She's still young, around 28, but she has made a lot of things for other people. Not only her, but I think all those people in the party that night have done a lot to humanity. Worked to help people with TBC, AIDS, and other disease. While I? I'm nothing compared to them..
4. Brugge
The next morning, we went to Brugge, a small city 1.5 hours from Antwerpen by train, which I just know that this city is one of the UNESCO world heritage cities, and known as the Venice of the North!! Oh my God.. I just read this information after I went back home.. :P *memalukan*
That's why there were so many tourists there (from Japanese to Americans).. and when I was there, I was wondering why there were so many people and why they looked so interested in this city.
What we have done there then? Here they are:
- walked to city without knowing the direction, just followed the people :p
- but then I bought the book about the city with the city map included, and we tried to follow the map - which was not so successfuly.
- ate muscle, waffel, and pralineee...
- took a boat tour
- saw some churches and failed to go up the bell town (because we just missed a few minutes before they closed the locket)
Anyway, I enjoyed the trip.. Thanks to Bintari who took us there.
5. Kartini Restaurant - Antwerpen
After our trip to Brugge, then we're ready for our BIG dinner..!! :D
My friend suggested to have dinner at Kartini restaurant in Antwerpen. She said it has the most delicious Indonesian food, compare to other Indonesian restaurants she knows. And we're lucky that we can directly get the table.. =) *that's a blessed for me*
Once I saw there's Soto Ayam on their menu, I directly ordered it. So that night I ate Soto Ayam with Emping, Rice, Kecap, and Samballl... *enak lho sambelnya*
It's soooo delicious!! I can't believe it.. it's just like the one made by my mom at home.... wahh.. bener2 dimakan dgn penuh perasaan deh..
Too bad that they categorize it as appetizer, so the portion is so little :(
Anyway, it's okay.. I like it. :)
6. Diamonds
Antwerpen is famous for its diamonds - I mean, its diamond shops :p
You can find many diamond shops in and around the central station.
Too bad I had no chance to do window shopping.. :p
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Stress..
Aku tau kalau hidup itu ada naik dan ada turun.
Ada saatnya happy, ada saatnya sedih.
Ada saatnya semua terlihat tenang dan nyaman, ada saatnya segala sesuatu terlihat sulit.
Kalau yg terakhir itu yg terjadi, dijamin rasanya benci banget sama hidup kita sendiri.
Dan itu yg sekarang lagi kerasa lagi.. :( *sigh*
SEBEL BANGET.
Aku tau kok, dibandingin dgn jutaan orang lainnya, masalahku gak ada apa2nya.
Tiap kali ngerasa down, lgs inget2 kalo masih byk orang yg mesti mikir gmn supaya bisa tetep hidup tiap harinya.. yg bukan maunya dia berada di tengah2 perang dan kelaparan.. yg bener2 sendirian gak punya temen dan keluarga, dan harus berjuang sendirian buat hidup..
Biar aku tetep bisa terus bersyukur.
Tapi, tetep aja rasanya gak mudah.
Ada gak ya yg pernah ngalamin seperti ini.. ada gak yg tau rasanya kyk gimana.. ;(
Atau mau tau rasanya seperti apa?
Rasanya seperti ditinggal pergi dan dicuekin sama semua orang.
Gak ada yg nengokin, apalagi nemenin.. bener2 ditinggal sendirian deh.
Ya sudahlah. Memang seperti ini kali jalanku saat ini..
Duh, maaf ya kalau aku sering terbaca ngeluh mulu.
Abis mo ngomong ke sapa lagi.. cuman bisa nulis di sini.. ;( *hiks2*
Anyway,
Kantorku bakal pindah, deket ke kota, jadi gak perlu naek bis 2 kali. Deket shopping centre pula, jadi pulang kerja kalo lg bete bisa cepet jalan2 buat cuci mata..
Kerjaanku sendiri sih masih asik2 aja.
Itu berita bagusnya.
Berita jeleknya, makin sepi aja isi kantornya.. semua pada cabut. Stefi pun mau cabut jg kalo nemu kerjaan baru. Aku jg sebenernya pingin cabut, tapi sampe skrg blum nemu kerjaan baru..
Gitu deh ceritanya.
Makanya skrg suka stress sendiri. Kayak dipaku di tempat, jd gak bisa kemana2.
Mana sendirian pula.
sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.
pingin bgt pergi dan ga usah mikirin semuanya lagi..
Ada saatnya happy, ada saatnya sedih.
Ada saatnya semua terlihat tenang dan nyaman, ada saatnya segala sesuatu terlihat sulit.
Kalau yg terakhir itu yg terjadi, dijamin rasanya benci banget sama hidup kita sendiri.
Dan itu yg sekarang lagi kerasa lagi.. :( *sigh*
SEBEL BANGET.
Aku tau kok, dibandingin dgn jutaan orang lainnya, masalahku gak ada apa2nya.
Tiap kali ngerasa down, lgs inget2 kalo masih byk orang yg mesti mikir gmn supaya bisa tetep hidup tiap harinya.. yg bukan maunya dia berada di tengah2 perang dan kelaparan.. yg bener2 sendirian gak punya temen dan keluarga, dan harus berjuang sendirian buat hidup..
Biar aku tetep bisa terus bersyukur.
Tapi, tetep aja rasanya gak mudah.
Ada gak ya yg pernah ngalamin seperti ini.. ada gak yg tau rasanya kyk gimana.. ;(
Atau mau tau rasanya seperti apa?
Rasanya seperti ditinggal pergi dan dicuekin sama semua orang.
Gak ada yg nengokin, apalagi nemenin.. bener2 ditinggal sendirian deh.
Ya sudahlah. Memang seperti ini kali jalanku saat ini..
Duh, maaf ya kalau aku sering terbaca ngeluh mulu.
Abis mo ngomong ke sapa lagi.. cuman bisa nulis di sini.. ;( *hiks2*
Anyway,
Kantorku bakal pindah, deket ke kota, jadi gak perlu naek bis 2 kali. Deket shopping centre pula, jadi pulang kerja kalo lg bete bisa cepet jalan2 buat cuci mata..
Kerjaanku sendiri sih masih asik2 aja.
Itu berita bagusnya.
Berita jeleknya, makin sepi aja isi kantornya.. semua pada cabut. Stefi pun mau cabut jg kalo nemu kerjaan baru. Aku jg sebenernya pingin cabut, tapi sampe skrg blum nemu kerjaan baru..
Gitu deh ceritanya.
Makanya skrg suka stress sendiri. Kayak dipaku di tempat, jd gak bisa kemana2.
Mana sendirian pula.
sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.
pingin bgt pergi dan ga usah mikirin semuanya lagi..
udah ah, kerja lagi dulu.. abis itu kirim2 aplikasi lagi..
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Timber for Pillars
"A timber fit for pillars should not be misused for chopsticks.
I believe you are very capable of so much more, keep moving forward."
Two sentences said by my ex-colleague years ago and I still remember until now.
Two sentences I always remember everytime I feel useless and having lack of confidence.
Two sentences I always say to myself everytime I'm facing problems and difficulties at work.
Two sentences I always want to believe, that someday I could be like what she said..
;(
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Mind oh mind
The real freedom is in a man's mind,
you can choose to always think or to stop thinking.
I know now it's better to stop thinking sometimes.
Stop thinking and talking too much.
And I don't need to answer every questions.
And ask about everything.
Because sometimes I don't understand what I'm thinking and what I'm saying.
Anyway, when I decide not to think about particular thing, suddenly something else from nowhere comes up in my mind.
I had a dream last night. I met my old friend from kindergarten. I forget when the last time we met physically.. it should be years ago. I didn't think about him nowadays, but what's he doing in my dream?
Na ja, it's only a dream..
you can choose to always think or to stop thinking.
I know now it's better to stop thinking sometimes.
Stop thinking and talking too much.
And I don't need to answer every questions.
And ask about everything.
Because sometimes I don't understand what I'm thinking and what I'm saying.
Anyway, when I decide not to think about particular thing, suddenly something else from nowhere comes up in my mind.
I had a dream last night. I met my old friend from kindergarten. I forget when the last time we met physically.. it should be years ago. I didn't think about him nowadays, but what's he doing in my dream?
Na ja, it's only a dream..
Monday, April 14, 2008
...
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Hari ini..
Today is the first day I have to work alone.
Alone to take care of those projects and other little little things.. :( *glek*
I cannot describe how I feel.. campur aduk.. excited, tapi jg kadang ga pede, seneng banyak kerjaan tapi sekaligus pusing (I've screamed several times today, until my colleague next door asked me what happened.. :p)..
Anyway, it's exhausted.
Tried to re-create a manual without having the sample on my hand.. an almost impossible job I have to do. Checked this and that, confirmed this and that, everyone wanted to have fast reply and answers..
Moreover, started from today I will use German more often.. I have no choice.. it's the part that made me "semriwing"..
But I think I could survive.. Thanks to my boss, who already informed the man whom I spoke with, that he should speak slowly.. so I could understand what he's saying.. :p Thanks also to LEO, without it I will need longer time to write those emails (although sometimes it just makes me more confused since there are so many different words to describe one word.. - which one should I choose?)
Hmm.. out of these things, I feel that I will walk alone.
Huaa.. I know this day will come.
I just hope that I have enough confidence to do all these things.
Maybe I should return to be someone Sotong ever knew more than 10 years ago.. simple-tough-positive-supportive-confidence young girl, so I will be able to go through this part of my life easily.
The difference is, at that time the young girl knew what she wanted: to get an almost impossible thing for her. And she made it.
Alone to take care of those projects and other little little things.. :( *glek*
I cannot describe how I feel.. campur aduk.. excited, tapi jg kadang ga pede, seneng banyak kerjaan tapi sekaligus pusing (I've screamed several times today, until my colleague next door asked me what happened.. :p)..
Anyway, it's exhausted.
Tried to re-create a manual without having the sample on my hand.. an almost impossible job I have to do. Checked this and that, confirmed this and that, everyone wanted to have fast reply and answers..
Moreover, started from today I will use German more often.. I have no choice.. it's the part that made me "semriwing"..
But I think I could survive.. Thanks to my boss, who already informed the man whom I spoke with, that he should speak slowly.. so I could understand what he's saying.. :p Thanks also to LEO, without it I will need longer time to write those emails (although sometimes it just makes me more confused since there are so many different words to describe one word.. - which one should I choose?)
Hmm.. out of these things, I feel that I will walk alone.
Huaa.. I know this day will come.
I just hope that I have enough confidence to do all these things.
Maybe I should return to be someone Sotong ever knew more than 10 years ago.. simple-tough-positive-supportive-confidence young girl, so I will be able to go through this part of my life easily.
The difference is, at that time the young girl knew what she wanted: to get an almost impossible thing for her. And she made it.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Weekend Story
My weekend story started on Friday evening, after the office hour.
1st story: I need a girl!
Michael offered me a ride since he wanted to go to the travel agent in the city. He's one of my colleagues who's going to leave the company next month (as result of the company merger..), and he's planning to take leaves he still has to go to Jaba, an island somewhere on earth.. (I forget again where it is exactly)
Anyway.. I think he's currently in the situation where he needs a girl, to be his gf (not to be his wife, for sure..). This conclusion is based on my observation.
First, everytime he told about his new job, he always said that there's no girls in the team.
Second, he often asked me about my housemate.. (it's kinda weird.. because he doesn't know Katrin, I only told him about her.. and ok, showed her picture..)
Third, he asked about my bf..? he..
Fourth, he asked me whether I would like to accompany him for the vacation.. HEE??
Last, he asked me if I would like to go for drinking with him.
Well, too bad.. I wasn't in a good mood.. Once is enough for me.
He definitely needs a girl. Man.. find somewhere, bitte..
But before that perhaps he should leave his parents first.. :p
2nd story: my boot and Takumi noodle
Saturday morning. Ok, it's not morning actually, it's noon.
The weather was bad.. cold, windy and raining.
I went to Düsseldorf for windows shopping.. just want to check some stuffs there, and tried my boot.
About the boot, I bought it few months ago, but rarely wore it. Only one time, to the office, and Marc stared at my boot.
It's not too big actually, but it still looked big :(
I felt like wearing giant shoes.. and really hope no one noticed.
But it's not that bad for bad weather.. it kept my feet dry.
About Takumi noodle.
I found this Japanese restaurant after I saw long line at Naniwa (although it's already 3 pm.. ckck..) then I decided to go somewhere else to eat.
Actually I'm not a big fans of Japanese noodle. But dunno why, everytime I'm in Duesseldorf it's like no other choice than to eat Japanese food. So I ate noodle at Takumi.
Takumi is also a small restaurant like Naniwa, but it has a lot of Japanese writings everywhere on the wall.. about the menu, food, drinks, or whatever I don't know.
So, since it's the first time for me to eat there, I asked the waiter (he's Japanese). What is the special menu from this resto? First he said: noodle.. OK, which noodle? And he pointed to a black board in front of me which has Japanese writing on it. OK.. I think I cannot read Japanese, can I?
Then I looked at him like a stupid person. He expected me to understand Japanese??? Mann..
And then he only said, "ooh.. sorry, no picture.." :P
So I asked him to describe what they put on the noodle. And he forgot also the German word for that thing, so he asked first his friend.. :D
At last, I gave up. I said, "ok, just let me know which one from these noodle (written on the menu) tastes the best. You choose." And he chose another one, not from the list I asked..
A bowl of rice, some fried boneless chicken, and a BIG bowl of noodle with a GIANT spoon.. :P
Too bad I didn't bring my camera..
I left the resto with fully stomach, smelly cloth+jacket, and sleepy..
My question: why Japanese noodle is always served in a big portion? (with big bowls..)
Do Japanese people always eat a lot? (I saw a Japanese woman sitting next to me ate even bigger portion than my noodle..)
I'm wondering..
3rd story: Jogging and catch a cold
Sunday was cold. It's like in winter again.
Katrin wanted to go for jogging, so I joined her. Only one round, and I gave up.. My jacket was too thin, and my ear hurted. It was damn cold.. :((
As a result: catch a cold.
Be careful with the weather..
Later in the afternoon, I biked to the city for sight seeing. Today the stores were opened.
Got a fleece-jacket and shoes for my mom.. and 2 slices of champagne chocolate cake from Heinemann, the best backery in this area.. one for me and one for Katrin.
We both agree that it's okay to buy this kind of cakes sometimes.. because it's not something that we could make by ourselves.
For me personally, I just try to enjoy my life while I can..
1st story: I need a girl!
Michael offered me a ride since he wanted to go to the travel agent in the city. He's one of my colleagues who's going to leave the company next month (as result of the company merger..), and he's planning to take leaves he still has to go to Jaba, an island somewhere on earth.. (I forget again where it is exactly)
Anyway.. I think he's currently in the situation where he needs a girl, to be his gf (not to be his wife, for sure..). This conclusion is based on my observation.
First, everytime he told about his new job, he always said that there's no girls in the team.
Second, he often asked me about my housemate.. (it's kinda weird.. because he doesn't know Katrin, I only told him about her.. and ok, showed her picture..)
Third, he asked about my bf..? he..
Fourth, he asked me whether I would like to accompany him for the vacation.. HEE??
Last, he asked me if I would like to go for drinking with him.
Well, too bad.. I wasn't in a good mood.. Once is enough for me.
He definitely needs a girl. Man.. find somewhere, bitte..
But before that perhaps he should leave his parents first.. :p
2nd story: my boot and Takumi noodle
Saturday morning. Ok, it's not morning actually, it's noon.
The weather was bad.. cold, windy and raining.
I went to Düsseldorf for windows shopping.. just want to check some stuffs there, and tried my boot.
About the boot, I bought it few months ago, but rarely wore it. Only one time, to the office, and Marc stared at my boot.
It's not too big actually, but it still looked big :(
I felt like wearing giant shoes.. and really hope no one noticed.
But it's not that bad for bad weather.. it kept my feet dry.
About Takumi noodle.
I found this Japanese restaurant after I saw long line at Naniwa (although it's already 3 pm.. ckck..) then I decided to go somewhere else to eat.
Actually I'm not a big fans of Japanese noodle. But dunno why, everytime I'm in Duesseldorf it's like no other choice than to eat Japanese food. So I ate noodle at Takumi.
Takumi is also a small restaurant like Naniwa, but it has a lot of Japanese writings everywhere on the wall.. about the menu, food, drinks, or whatever I don't know.
So, since it's the first time for me to eat there, I asked the waiter (he's Japanese). What is the special menu from this resto? First he said: noodle.. OK, which noodle? And he pointed to a black board in front of me which has Japanese writing on it. OK.. I think I cannot read Japanese, can I?
Then I looked at him like a stupid person. He expected me to understand Japanese??? Mann..
And then he only said, "ooh.. sorry, no picture.." :P
So I asked him to describe what they put on the noodle. And he forgot also the German word for that thing, so he asked first his friend.. :D
At last, I gave up. I said, "ok, just let me know which one from these noodle (written on the menu) tastes the best. You choose." And he chose another one, not from the list I asked..
A bowl of rice, some fried boneless chicken, and a BIG bowl of noodle with a GIANT spoon.. :P
Too bad I didn't bring my camera..
I left the resto with fully stomach, smelly cloth+jacket, and sleepy..
My question: why Japanese noodle is always served in a big portion? (with big bowls..)
Do Japanese people always eat a lot? (I saw a Japanese woman sitting next to me ate even bigger portion than my noodle..)
I'm wondering..
3rd story: Jogging and catch a cold
Sunday was cold. It's like in winter again.
Katrin wanted to go for jogging, so I joined her. Only one round, and I gave up.. My jacket was too thin, and my ear hurted. It was damn cold.. :((
As a result: catch a cold.
Be careful with the weather..
Later in the afternoon, I biked to the city for sight seeing. Today the stores were opened.
Got a fleece-jacket and shoes for my mom.. and 2 slices of champagne chocolate cake from Heinemann, the best backery in this area.. one for me and one for Katrin.
We both agree that it's okay to buy this kind of cakes sometimes.. because it's not something that we could make by ourselves.
For me personally, I just try to enjoy my life while I can..
Thursday, April 03, 2008
I'm Back!
I start to love being myself right now..
Thanks to my little sista, to remind me those things.
And also to my big bro and sis.
"kami semua sayang yuli...
adik kecil yang udah gak lagi kecil...
jadi inget umur 4 thn udah berani nginep sendiri di utan kayu
eh, sekarang udah berani sendirian ngelanglang buana...."
hiks.. jd terharu sekali.. beruntung sekali aku bisa punya keluarga ya baik dan saling sayang..
sekali lagi makasih ya udah mau nemenin aku dari jauh..
I love u all too.. :x
Btw, OOT:
have you seen the movie: Get Married?
unbelievable funny :D
benni (penganten cowok): "saya terima nikahnya teman saya ini.."
penghulu: "stop stop stop stop.. salah.. bukan temen.. ga ada temen itu.."
penghulu: "di dalam redaksi ijab kabul, ga ada itu temen.."
guntoro (temennya penganten cowok): "eh, kalo ga bisa biar gue aja deh ah.."
Thanks to my little sista, to remind me those things.
And also to my big bro and sis.
"kami semua sayang yuli...
adik kecil yang udah gak lagi kecil...
jadi inget umur 4 thn udah berani nginep sendiri di utan kayu
eh, sekarang udah berani sendirian ngelanglang buana...."
hiks.. jd terharu sekali.. beruntung sekali aku bisa punya keluarga ya baik dan saling sayang..
sekali lagi makasih ya udah mau nemenin aku dari jauh..
I love u all too.. :x
Btw, OOT:
have you seen the movie: Get Married?
unbelievable funny :D
benni (penganten cowok): "saya terima nikahnya teman saya ini.."
penghulu: "stop stop stop stop.. salah.. bukan temen.. ga ada temen itu.."
penghulu: "di dalam redaksi ijab kabul, ga ada itu temen.."
guntoro (temennya penganten cowok): "eh, kalo ga bisa biar gue aja deh ah.."
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