Anyway, perhaps they're just not so important.
One thing came into my mind some when last week. One of the very first thought that I had during the first months (or year) I work here. That there are so many new things I could learn and they are interesting, but somehow it's difficult to raise my deep interest. In other words: I couldn't get myself into the work deeply. Not deep enough until I could say what I think, or what my opinion is, or freely discuss about those big issues at work. Sometimes I just feel like they're not important. Strange, really strange. And until now (after 2 years), sometimes I still feel it.
Have any of you ever been on that situation? You have a lot of interesting things to do / to learn in front of you, you think they're interesting, but you just cannot get into it. Confused? So am I.
There are some people at work where they can discuss about the work anytime anywhere. They make me amazed. I find it very difficult to get into that kind of discussion. Either I'm not interested, or it's just beyond me. Or perhaps I'm just living in my own world. Na ja.. it's just difficult sometimes.
ok. stop now. Time to sleep.
