It's Christmas

It's almost a perfect Christmas Eve until the time I arrived at the church at 11 pm and realized that the mass has almost came to the end. I cried. All of a sudden I want to be with my family..


It turned out that I kept the wrong information in my brain. My brain should have transferred 22.00 to 10 pm, but somehow it's 11 pm :( Now I know that I should be more careful with numbers..


Apart from that, we had a good day here. Having heavy snow-rain the whole day, then chocolate baileys, sekt and radler at noon with some friends (standing outside the bar, under the pouring snow-rain), and perfect Christmas dinner at a friend's place.


Christmas day was also okay. Learned from the previous mistake, this time we managed: first to make sure that the mass was at 11 am, then to make sure that we're not late. 


Second day of Christmas: it's time to take a walk. We have lots of snow here, and it's always good to walk in the snow with the sun shining above you.


So, all in all, it's been a good Christmas, my first Christmas here.. :)

Happy holidays!

Today's quote

"When someone sees the same people every day, they wind up becoming part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own."


from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

When there is no energy left..

Fiuhh..
Sometimes I have no idea how I could still stand for this job so far.
Wanna cry, every time I remember this and that things I should do, work on, finish, plan, think, etc.. before end of the year. And that means before end of next year - or well, before I take the plane to Jakarta.


Just today for instance (a week before Christmas), I get a new deadline which was decided out of the blue *whatsoever*: to have all existing order migrated into the new order structure until end of Q1-11. *nothing to understand here* That means.. I've only 2 months + a couple of days to plan, go to the countries, explain, give the training, etc .. fiuhhh..
It's my mistake I think. Now I know that particular people cannot (or don't have guts to) make decision. So next time I'll decide - well, of course with a better preparation/planning before.


Next year is going to be a tough one (again.. oh well, perhaps never I will have one easy year..).


ANyway...
I'm totally kaputt now. I'm afraid these crazy days plus some minutes at noon being outside without my jacket (yes, they locked the meeting room already when I got back from other meeting :( ) will bring no good for the body..
BUT
I don't want to get ill. Not now please.
Tomorrow is going to be a loooooong day. Should be at the office before 8 am, and directly go to the year-end party in the evening.. and yup.. will be a long night.


hmmmm... x-(


   

When you're alone

--unimportant writing--


When you're alone, having nobody within your reach, many things are seen more clearly. Many thoughts come and go, fill up your mind and soul; you question many things, and at the same time you have your own answers. Sometimes unanswered questions fade away, and at the end you'll have peace in your heart.


Something that once you believed with all your heart could then melt away. You start to accept what life has given you so far, you contemplate your life. Then you just don't expect anything from others. You care only yourself and people you love, so you'll try to enjoy every moment of your life with them, each single hour and day. Then by that time you know what you want, what your limit, what the others could expect from you, and not they who dictate what you should give to them. 


I'm trying to have that peace right now, and I who will decide what I want to have and what I want to give, and not you. No one should define other's happiness, and no one should seek for happiness in others, for pure happiness is coming only from your very own.


hmm.. 
the last 6 years was not easy, perhaps you never know what you've done, but I've survived and now I feel content with my life. I hope it will always be..

*sigh* jd nulis ga jelas gini sih.. just leave me alone..

Sometimes.. I'm just tired.

Capek.

Kenapa sih gak boleh menikmati waktu apa adanya,

ngerasa bahagia untuk saat ini saja,

tanpa harus mikir yg dulu, kemarin, besok, dan masa depan?

Kadang kita terlalu kuatir terhadap byk hal,

yg seharusnya gak perlu.

Cuma bikin capek hati aja.

Buat apa mengkuatirkan hal2 yg sudah terjadi,

buat apa jg mengkuatirkan hal2 yg belum terjadi.

hmmm..

for this time i won't say a word to you God. Not a word.

I know what will happen if I do that.

Just do whatever you want me to do, okay?

1st disadvantage of living very close to the border..

Now I found one disadvantage of living very close to the border, which makes me really really irritated! --> Mobile phone network.

Just saw my mobile phone bill from last month, and guess what. I have to pay some calls that's supposed to be included in the fixed monthly rate. It's just because my mobile connected to non German network at the time I made the calls AT HOME!!!! YES, AT HOME.... and my home is still in Germany for sure (or is it Swiss already?) arrrgghhhhh!!!! I hate that! :( And that's a lot! almost the same cost as the monthly rate itself!! I really really really hate this.

*sigh*

What to do then?

Now I should really check the network every time I'm at home. Second, turn off the automatic network change.. (still try to find how to do it in this HTC)

damn.. I hate this.

I think the mobile phone provider should have special package for the people who lives and works close to the border.. that could be interesting.