When you're alone

--unimportant writing--


When you're alone, having nobody within your reach, many things are seen more clearly. Many thoughts come and go, fill up your mind and soul; you question many things, and at the same time you have your own answers. Sometimes unanswered questions fade away, and at the end you'll have peace in your heart.


Something that once you believed with all your heart could then melt away. You start to accept what life has given you so far, you contemplate your life. Then you just don't expect anything from others. You care only yourself and people you love, so you'll try to enjoy every moment of your life with them, each single hour and day. Then by that time you know what you want, what your limit, what the others could expect from you, and not they who dictate what you should give to them. 


I'm trying to have that peace right now, and I who will decide what I want to have and what I want to give, and not you. No one should define other's happiness, and no one should seek for happiness in others, for pure happiness is coming only from your very own.


hmm.. 
the last 6 years was not easy, perhaps you never know what you've done, but I've survived and now I feel content with my life. I hope it will always be..

*sigh* jd nulis ga jelas gini sih.. just leave me alone..