It's the time

Why is it so difficult to start writing something.. hmm.. 


It's about the work. For the first time in 2.5 years working here, I'm thinking about setting up my finish line. It's just too much. I feel like I couldn't finish much. And that's only one thing. I feel like if I want to move on and make result, I have to change myself, from collective type of person to (a bit) I-don't-care or I-want-this-way type of person. Of course after I've listened to people who REALLY know what and how, and not the people who THINK they know what is right and wrong, what is allowed and not allowed. This is FRUSTRATING.. I don't know if I can drastically do that.


I learned a lot. Learned how it is difficult to get people thinking a bit outside the box, at least to accept that there might be other ways than the ways we normally have. 
Unfortunately I couldn't learn as fast as I want to, to be at the same page with the people who understand things very well, so I couldn't argue :(


Sometimes I just think that it's only leadership problem, the decision maker. No one could really want to take a full decision. A decision where no one couldn't even question back. For sure no one wants to go into details. Because once they go, they will learn how SIMPLICITY is above many things. 


I do realize that simplicity is the key to make things running. At least running first. How can I convince people to do things which are complicated while they can find other simple way? Just for the shake of "it is not correct way, it is not in the system, blablabla" then we should do simple things in more complicated way?


I'm working in service development. You have no idea how the two additional "Ps" can really make huge difference in the development. "People" always want to have simple "Process", but it's also "People" who make simple "Process" more complicated. Often (unfortunately) using the system as the reason.


I set my finish line in 2 years. Five years would be enough to let them having something that they've just talked for years. Well, at least the beginning. And it's already something real, better than just talking.


Fuihh.. I should survive.. *wish me luck*