If it's meant to be, it will be

A friend of mine told me 12 years ago, "you have a straight life". Having a "perfect" boyfriend, never went through common big differences which potentially could lead to difficulties among couples such as religions, ethnic, age, languages, etc; all seemed to be a straight life. Finish the college, get a job, then get married. What was could be better than that. But that's not then what happened.
Sometimes I wish I could have had that straight path, without had to go through all difficult time, and be far away from my family and friends.. Maybe right now I would have been married, being a mom, having my own family wherever we live, while still working somewhere..
It's even more difficult now to have such wish.
But I believe I'm not the only one who determine what my life should be. Often I just got myself turned up side down. At that point in time, I could only try to follow the life, accepting what it is bringing and giving. It is sad sometimes, being confused of your own life. I'm just afraid that always following the life won't bring anything at the end. I don't know.
Everybody has his/her own life path, though. Sometimes what we see as a straight path is actually not, or turning to be zig zag, or up and down path. Some people made it, some not. Some took another path, some keep staying on the same path. 
I'm just thinking how, when, where it will lead to and end. *sigh* They said, if it's meant to be, it will be. But when it is..

Wish I could be with you now.. ;( *miss you*