Something else is more important..

I saw The Change Up today, common Hollywood movie where the story is not so special. Nevertheless it made me thinking a bit. 
This movie told about the story of a married man (who has beautiful wife and 3 kids), and his best friend who's still single and never get serious with his life (as he's a quitter).
The married man loves his family so much and works very hard to make sure they have a good living. But down the way he starts to forget the first reason why he has to work hard. He's more and more into his work, and works become his first priority instead of the wife and family. We can guess how the story continuous from this point (with a happy ending of course), but that's not what I want to write more.
As I said before, somehow it made me thinking. Sometimes we know exactly what's the main reason we do something. As example above, the reason to work very hard is for the family. But then we often just forget that, and after a long time we just realize that we've done too much or too far from what we wanted to achieve at the very first place..
There should be a lot of signs enough for us to warn that we're doing too much, that it's time to stop or slow the pace. But again, sometimes we just couldn't see those signs. Like that married man, he couldn't see how unhappy is his wife.
I think, anything that we do too much sometimes is just making us focusing more on ourselves. And the people around us, which often the ones who love us (and we love), are the ones who get the damage - if not the first, or the worst.
I know that we cannot make ourselves always available for the people around us, the reason why do something. There's always a time where we are only focusing on ourselves, on one goal. However it's always good if we can stop for a while, then see and listen to our  surrounding.. think of what we have so far.. our family, our husband or wife, our boyfriend or girlfriend, kids, parents.. see how we've used the time also for their well being.


I write that because perhaps I'm being in the middle of trying to see around my life right now. Trying to remember what's the first reason I'm being here and working hard. Although I think my first reason cannot be used anymore now. People change and I've made my decision. However, still I want to slow down for a while and see what I could do better for the ones I love.

I learn to enjoy the summer

Often for me good weather means outdoor activities, biking, jogging, walking, wandern, hiking, sight seeing, swimming, or something else which always requires me to do this and that physically. But today I learn to enjoy the good weather differently. Well, for most of people it is not something special. But it is for me.
Being in the swimming pool area where you can lay under the tree, go in and out the pool without have to really swim, just enjoy the water, it's really something. I feel relax. I didn't know (until today) that I could enjoy it. 
Sometimes perhaps we just need to loose ourselves a bit. Having our own lazy time by doing nothing but enjoy the good weather.

Know When to Stop

Lately my heartburn is coming back. I know that I will always have problem around my stomach (somehow), but still sometimes I have difficulty to figure out what exactly is the cause of my stomach problem (in this case today is the heartburn).
I got this heartburn since I started my work here. That was almost 3 years ago. What has been changed is definitely my meal. I have German lunch every day now, instead of having my own meal (self made, which is more Asian style). 
At first I didn't think that it mattered, but I was wrong. When you change your eating habit, increase or decrease your meal, sometimes you'll just get some adjustment in your body (I mean, some more fat or less fat here and there :) ). But sometimes it is also possible that your body just refuses the change. For my case, it's like it cannot stand anymore. Producing more acid which press my throat and vomiting the food. Strange though, seems like our body can really set its own limit. 
And here starts the thing. Sometimes you can be really hungry, like you can eat everything.  So do I. Sometimes I want to eat more in one go. But the body cannot stand. Somehow I should try to understand my body. My mind should be able to say stop and take no more food. In the end it's really how to control your mind and know when to stop. 

Without July!

July has been away, and now it's August already. Time flies so fast, as always. 


When I was a kid, I remember one day I was thinking how a day lasted so long. It's like time walking so slow. And now, it's just flying away like that, even before I could grasp everything for my mind. 


July has been always special. It's the time where I could retreat then return back with more spirit and energy. It's the time to think back about my life, to be very grateful to what life has given, and also the time I use to think about the path I should take next. Although sometimes it's just confusing, not really sure where I should go. 


July also reminds me of my family. How I miss being around them, and how I also have missed so many experiences with them because I choose being here.
Nevertheless, somehow July never lets me being alone. There are always people I love and who care about me around. :) It's a bless. 


Thank you, God.