New Year Resolution?

Writing more often, perhaps one of the resolution I should have for this year. Once you're writing, you're actually learning. So stop writing means stop learning? Could be.


However I learnt something about myself today. 
Buying frozen pizza for dinner turned out to be not an easy decision for me. Somehow it's easier to decide for buying shoes. *strange*


Just went back from 3-short-week vacation, and I need another additional week just to sort out many things (i mean: cleaning, cleaning, cleaning.. hmm.. plus ironing).


Back to the topic. Second resolution.. hmm.. I really would like to get answers of my unanswered questions (see previous posting below). I must admit, that it's for the sake of my self (isn't it okay to be egoistic once?). The problem is, it's not as easy as I thought. Or people just made it difficult. Why can you just come here to visit me, then we just sit and talk - or it's more: I ask, you talk / tell the stories honestly, and I listen? Not more than that. People sometimes are worried of what others' thinking or feeling. 


I learnt something else also. When a couple separated, in lots of people mind, they should then just walk their own separate way. There is no need to cross path again, even to talk. The past is the past. Personally, I don't agree on that. The past gives you lesson learned, people that you crossed your life with, and memories. Those are things which enrich your soul. Cutting the past and pretending that you have no past is like trying to kill part of your soul. 


I think everybody knows that to love someone means also accepting his/her past. So to love yourself means also accepting your past. I accept my past without regretting those years I was with him, for example. However sometimes we've made mistake also, by trying to cut other's past.


Anyway, the past also sometimes brings some consequence to the current or future. Some promises that we made, even though the situation has changed now, it should not be broken and has to carry on. Like long time ago I've promised to her, that whatever happens between me and him, she will always be like my own mom and so I'll always be like a daughter to her. A promise that I will always keep. *Some people might think that I'm weird.*


Last thing in mind for the resolution. Love yourself, free yourself. 


Happy Belated Blessed New Year! =)