Kids

This morning when I was in the swimming pool's shower, I saw a mom with three small kids (I guess they are between less than 1 year to 6 years old) coming in from the pool. The oldest one - a boy, helped his sister to push the shower button, then both of them just stood there under each shower until their mom coming with the shampoo. She asked them to take some and put on their hair. She taught them how to shampoo their hair. After some time, the second one - a girl, I think she's just around 3-4, proudly said that she's done it. That made me smile. Small kids always make me smile.
It reminds me then my friends' daughter. She's going to be 4 in April, I think. It's love at first sight I guess, when I met her for the first time. She was just a very little girl, so pure. Now? Well, she is growing :)
I don't know if I could say it fortunate, but I could see how friends around me dealing with their kids from different ages. Many things I could learn from them. From the one who is still being pregnant, until the ones who have to deal with their teenage kids. Oh, not to forget, another one with grown-up kids. I think each of them have always their own challenges.
Sometimes I wonder myself, how it would be if I'm on their position, with kids.. :p
Okay, perhaps someday I could have kids - who knows, but I never thought about that really. Well, it's not because I don't want to have kids, it's just I'm not yet in the phase that I could make kids :D. So better to leave that thought later when the time comes.. 
A colleague from other office once asked me suddenly, do you have kids? I was quite surprised, that's the first time someone asked me that. Did I look old? - that's my first thought he he. No, I didn't ask him back like that.. I just told him that I even haven't married yet etc. At the end his conclusion was: ooh.. you're a career woman. Why is it always like that? Sometimes I don't understand. I am NOT a career woman. Well, at least that what I think. Maybe that's how people put people in boxes. Not a married woman, then a career woman.
Anyway, kids.. 
Few nights ago I dreamed about a little girl. Well, I dream a lot actually, almost every night. But that one I told my cousin. And what she said? Perhaps she's your daughter. Oh God. Okay. I think, I'll just leave it to God. When the time comes, it comes. When I'll have kids, then I'll have. When it's not, then it's not. I believe the best is to always accept what we have and what we don't have right now. 

Antara Ada dan Tiada

Setiap hari dicoba jalani. Pilihan hidup untuk berjalan di sini.
Selalu bertanya, kemana akan pergi. Untuk apa di akhir sana.
Hiduplah untuk orang lain, hidup yang menjadi arti. 
Hidup bukan untuk sendiri, menjadi takut tak peduli.
Melangkah dan terus melangkah, tanpa tahu apa di ujung sana.
Tak ada pilihan, bukan? Selain tetap melangkah. 
Semua yang tidak pasti, tinggallah akhirnya penyerahan sepenuh diri.


Bukan karir, bukan harta, bukan duniawi, bukan untuk membuktikan diri. 
Hanya jalan yang coba diikuti. Mengapa berbeda, tak henti bertanya. 
Selalu ada, jalan yang berbeda. 
Diberi, hanyalah diberi. Baik dan buruk, semua harus disyukuri. 


Melihat ke belakang, menatap ke depan. 
Mohon berkati, dan sertai dalam setiap langkah.

Worry

Often we worry too much on many little things in our daily life. Worrying that we'll not get what we need. It makes our mind heavy and we cannot think clearly. Often the results in the end show that it's not necessary to worry too much. Sometimes we have to believe that everything is going to be okay. Yes, everything is going to be okay. Whatever it is.