4 Years Ago Today

Four years ago today, I started my new life here. Alone without any friends nearby, and brave enough to embrace whatever may happen. I had only eagerness to learn new things, do my best for each work given. It's completely new world to me. 
Indeed I learnt a lot. I learnt how different cultures met and melted, how people thought and perceived things in different ways. I still remember how I felt being in the middle of colleagues (all men) and tried to find your way to be recognized. At least I tried, and stood for it. Failed? of course it happened. Several times. 
I remember how frustrated I could be, just because of different way of working or difficulty to understand or to make other understand.
Four years ago when I started, I never had in mind that I'm going to stay this long. Well, to be honest, I had no plan at all. Do it first and let see where I will go. More or less that's my thought. 

Four years later, it's just amazing how time flies so fast. If I look back, I must say that I'm very grateful for all what I experienced and what I got. It's priceless. I saw the world, different places, like what I wished long time ago. I learned a lot at work. I'm more aware of differences, different behavior and way of thinking because of different cultures; and understand them easier. I got new friends. I did things I never thought I would have done before. I made decision to end relationship which was going nowhere. I let myself to start a new one. I let myself not to worry much of what's going to happen in the future, for as my sister said, God has been so kind to look after me the last 7 years I'm here. 

However, our mind sometimes let us worrying about things. Or let us having regret feeling. Yes, I could not have all. I got some and I lost some. I realize that I lost time with my family, with my sister. I was not there when things happened around the family. I was not there when they needed me. We could not share our life. We're just being apart. Something that I regret, but there is no choice. It's just sad sometimes if I thought of that.
I always try to think that wherever you are, you cannot have all your love ones always around you. But who knows we'll have time together again.

Now I'm thinking when and where this part of my life will turn. Left, right, or around. Sometimes I always have that thought, that one time there will always be a turn. There will be a new chapter, new story. I'm not type of person who pursues the change, but the one who tries to be ready when it comes. Same like what I had in mind four years ago. Let see where it will go, and just be ready.

Happy 4th anniversary.