Laptop

I've been searching for a new laptop since months, but I always postponed to buy one due to many reasons (money, priority, specs, etc).
Then when I finally made a decision, the one that I want is only available in other country. 
Then when I finally made decision to buy the one which is actually a bit over my budget, the shop has the only one on the display.
Then when I finally said ok to buy it, I found out that the shop doesn't received credit card nor my bank card.
Then when I finally managed to get the cash, I found out later when I was home that the Serial Number written on the invoice is not the same with the one written on the laptop (the shopkeeper used the wrong packaging and he only scanned the serial number on the packaging without checking the laptop).
Then when I started, Window 8 made me a bit irritated.
Then when I checked my bank account balance, the fee and the rate from the withdraw seems making the total price is more expensive than the price itself :(
*sigh*

At that point, I know how much I love my old laptop. 
Even though it's slow, loud (I can hear it working hard),
and I don't dare anymore to run the vista (just stick with ubuntu),
but it's been there for almost 5 years..
:-((

I'm broke and I hate it.
But hate just makes things worst.
That's why I try to release it here. 
Hopefully I can get something good out of bad things happened..


*peace be with me*

Coming Back

Coming back, trying to learn writing again and to learn understanding things that I don't understand.

I didn't understand before, when a person is complaining about my solution and at the end he said "you can do whatever you choose, I don't care", it means he/she doesn't agree and means also I should not do that.
Instead, he's explaining to others that the solution that I give is not a solution and I should not do that.
Why can't just he say to me "no, it's a bad solution and don't do that" ?
I thought I made him clearly that it's only a proposal, it's not a final solution and therefore I ask his opinion first..
At the end it's communication problem. 

*Sigh*
Lessons learned:
People sometimes too busy complaining and demanding the best solution or their solution without thinking that other people maybe spending their time and effort to help them finding solution at the same time, they just don't see what others trying to do..
Second lesson, I should ask people to be more direct. I think I'm mentally ready to listen to people giving their direct opinion.
Third, be strong. Being a minority teaches me to stay strong.

Voila

First posting in 2014. After such a long pause.
Hmm. Where to start, which story to tell.
I'll take this one.

Have you ever experienced similar situation like this?

One day you get to know new people, and you thought you and they will be friends even though you rarely see each other. Well, at least that's my definition of friends. You met then share some experiences together, then you're my friend. I don't know if that's so naif or I just don't like to make things complicated.
Anyway..
Then someday after haven't heard each other for a long time, you contact them but without result. You don't know many of their friends, so you have no idea where to find or how to contact them. Once you could contact them, but no response given. It's strange, isn't it?

I just hope that they do that not because they want to cut off the friendship. But how could I know.. 
Few times I have to learn that I would not be able to understand all. 
Such this one, it's better to let it go and hope for their best. It's at least what I can do as a friend, isn't it?
Even though it's always sad when you lose your friends..

*It's true that friends come and go. But true friends will come and go, and come and go again, always crossing our each other's life paths.*

Berbelok

Ada masanya bersemangat, ada masanya jenuh dan bosan.
Ada masanya dimana segala sesuatu seperti pasti,
ada masanya dimana segala sesuatu serba tidak pasti.
Ada masanya banyak rencana, ada masanya tidak tahu apa yang mau direncana.

Di saat kita berada di masa jenuh, bosan, serba tidak pasti dan tidak tahu apa yang mau direncana, di saat itulah kita ingin dibawa kembali ke dalam hati dan pikiran.
Retreat sejenak, pergi satu langkah untuk menengok isi dari luar.

Dan beribu pertanyaan pun berdatangan.
Mengapa, dan bagaimana.
Apa, dan kemana.
Menuntut jawaban, atau malah diam saja.

Biarkan pikiran untuk diam, dan biarkan hati untuk mendengar.
Sampai mendapat jawaban? Tidak ada yang tahu.

Mungkin kadang kita hanya butuh sesekali waktu untuk berhenti, diam dan mendengar.
Untuk kemudian memulai lagi berjalan.
Entah di jalan yang sama, atau berbelok ke jalan yang lain.
*hmm*

From last trips

I was just back from some trips, and I just realized now how travelling could give us a lot of experiences. I don't mean those kind of experiences, but these kind of experiences:

• I was walking on the street (in London), and saw from a basement window a naked man sitting in his basement room watching tv..
• The hotel officer who brought my luggage to my room wearing a black tong (he's walking up stairs in front of me)
• The police officer who checked my passport asked if I want to go out with him and gave me his number..
• The immigration officer was laughing at me when I told her I will attend time management course.. (and she asked: have you always been late to the office? do you know to whom you're going to apply the time management? --> of course, to the boss)
• I had to pay 8 euro just to print the French train ticket in Belgium station and at the end the officer couldn't print it out, then used notification paper and wrote the ticket information by hand.. *I wish Deutsche Bahn could sell also French train ticket*
• I was asked to empty my rucksack by the security officer at the airport because he found something suspicious  and turned out it was the javanese sugar (gula jawa) that I brought from Holland.. (luckily the other officer knows gula jawa - I don't know how he knows it)
• Twin babies who sat behind me taking turn crying during the flight.. (luckily they understood each other - not crying at the same time.)
• We're waiting in front of mcdonalds for my friend's hubby and kid who were in restroom, when suddenly they came and went quickly out leaving us with confusion. Turned out he had no coin to pay and just decided to go out and run away (we found it out after some minutes waiting and at the end we decided to go out and looked for them).

Anyway.. without those kind of experiences, travelling would be boring, I guess :D

Looking forward to other trips, but now I look forward to the relax weekend at home first..

I Learn that..

.. it's not easy to be a boss.
Often when we have some problems at work, it's really easy to blame the boss. For instance for being so indecisive, tending to hang any decisions (I don't know if that's the correct term?), or changing the decision. All of those actions give impact to our work, jobs that have to be done. What's the result? Our frustration.. or even worst, ignorance.

However boss is also human. I'm not a boss, but I could see now more and more how complex are sometimes the situation, topics, problems that have to be solved or decided by the boss. You really have to have broad view and good understanding of everything, every single thing. Once you miss one, then it could lead to the wrong or not the best decision. 
You have to have really good and structured way of thinking, to identify which topic belongs or relates to which other topic, which should go to which box, which has to be prioritized, etc etc.
If the team manages only one specific subject, then perhaps it's not that complex. But if it manages the chain of processes or several subjects, then you're better be ready of the complexity that will appear. 
Last, you should be able also to react fast enough. I think we should not let a topic or problem open for too long without any decision. Even a decision to stop, postpone, or not to continue anymore. It's still a decision.

*Sigh* Not easy.
I hope any bosses realize that also, and try to improve as much as possible. 
A good subordinate will always try to help them even though the boss create the frustration.
Stay positive, and let not be ignorant.

Welcoming February with ..

Late post. Better than nothing. :)

hmm.. what to write..? hmm...
Beginilah kalau sudah lama gak nulis, bingung mau nulis apa. Padahal banyak banget cerita yang bisa ditulis dan dibagi. 

Weekend kemarin terbang lagi ke negeri viking. Sudah yang kedua kalinya untuk 2013 ini. Lama-lama bener2 bisa travel light, alias bawa tas gembol doang. Well, niatnya banyak sih. Bawa buku ini itu, biar bisa nyicil baca di pesawat. Tapi ya apa daya akhirnya dipakai buat tidur aja..

Kalo keseringan travel dgn jadwal / flight yang selalu sama, kemungkinan besar bakal bertemu orang2 yg sama juga. Ternyata saya tidak sendirian hilir mudik di sini..

Sesampai di sana, diniatkanlah untuk nyobain 1 resto yg katanya enak. Demi badan yg kayak mau masuk angin dan perut yg lapar. Hasilnya ternyata tidak menyesalkan, biarpun harganya minta ampun dan harus jalan jauh muter2 dulu padahal restorannya persis ada di belakang tempat parkir.. (biasa lah, ada yg harus ngalah dan ngikutin apa kata partner dulu.. sebelum akhirnya protes karena feelingnya mengatakan arah sebaliknya. - Dalam hal peta dan arah ini kadang gue mempertanyakan kebenaran bahwa pria bisa lebih baca peta dibanding wanita -.)
Tapi kesimpulan akhirnya tetep: masakan indonesia masih lebih kuat kemana2 bumbunya.. 

Pulang2 maksain nyelesaiin online training dari kantor, tentang potable water, yg sebelumnya dah gue ambil tapi gak lulussss.. 
Kayaknya dari dulu sampe sekarang ga berubah ya, kimia itu seperti diawang2.. susah banget nempel di otak. (Barusan coba selesaiin online training tentang waste water, coba tebak. Tentu saja tidak lulus lagi..)
Untung gue ga harus kerja tiap hari di bidang itu.. bisa2 gak lulus tiap hari hehe..

Sabtu nemenin partner ke ikea, pingin ngeliat 1 furniture, keliatan gede di brochurenya, tapi ternyata kecil banget hehehe.. Keluar2 cuma dapet 1 batang buat gantung baju (eh trus pas dicoba di rumah, kurang panjang :P). 
Pas mau keluar ikea, terjadilah pembicaraan berikut:
dia: mau ke Kopenhagen atau pulang?
gue: hmm.. terserah.. mo ngapain di sana? pulang jg gpp..
dia: jadi mau pulang aja? 
gue: ya terserah.. abis mo ngapain?
dia: mau ke toko musik.. gue mesti beli dst dst dst..
gue: lha, ya udah kita ke sana lah.. (dlm hati: bingung, knp ga bilang aja dari tadi hehe)

Ngomong2 soal komunikasi, karena kita menyadari sesadar2nya bahwa kita beda (partner cowok dari planet utara, gue cewek dari planet seberang), akhirnya kita bikin kode kalo pas ngobrol mau ganti topik: another box. Abis gue suka tau2 ngomong sesuatu yg gak ada hubungannya sama sekali sama topik obrolan sebelumnya, dan partner lgs bingung (dan gak nangkep). Mayan lah menghemat satu dua kalimat buat nerangin berkali2. Bagus buat otak kita jg, biar tau it's time to change the box! hehe..

Udah dulu deh.. besok sambung lagi dgn postingan yg lebih berbobot hehe..